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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2006|11:15 pm]

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August 3rd, please come [Jul. 21st, 2006|11:44 pm]
[mood | sleepy]
[music |stupid.]

Even if I do one thing that people disagree with, I feel as if they give up all hope for me. There is nothing worse than someone being dissapointed in you. 

It's an awesome feeling. Not.

I feel like Ive got nowhere to run to, everyone has something else they'd rather be doing, but they'll settle for me.

Except, for him. The one thing I started to walk away from.     

I'm ready to just get out of Jacksonville again and explore a few new places.
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(no subject) [Jul. 18th, 2006|03:42 pm]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |Evergreen Terrace]

Your face never looked so sad
no need to worry, cause I’ll be back



Life is so complicated

Im just trying to find the balance I've been missing

I know not everyone agrees with my decision, but desperate times call for desperate measures

It's not a question of being in love... It's just the challenges of life Im facing right now

Your being more than I could ever ask for : ]

I have a huge circle of friends, I'm coming to realize again

I cannot wait to hit the road for a few days with the boys, itll be "miles away from it all"

School starts soon, Me Lauren and David better have the same fucking lunch or ill kill myself. Hollieys gay ass wont even have a lunch :(

Until then, I'm jut trying to figure everything out, no one give up hope, especially not on me. I'm a fighter

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i like the agony scene [Jul. 5th, 2006|10:59 pm]
[music |the agony scene]

I will never live up to a standard, if I did i would just change my mind.

I want to live my life knowing that I lived every moment according to the way I thought or felt

I want everyone to accept me for who I am; the decisions I make, the clothes I wear,ect.

If you cant be there through it all and trust and support me and know that I will never fuck you over or

Summer has sucked a big dick

I'm trying so hard to be happy. It just sucks when I feel like Im either taken for granted or when I feel fucking invisible.

I'm getting all my college shit together; its really fucking scary, but I'm ready for it.

My senior pictures come in soon and I'm EXCITED :D

They look amazingggggggggggggg.

Until next time....fucking hang out with me.

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(no subject) [Jun. 27th, 2006|08:45 pm]
[music |brand new. where everyone is at. awesome]

IM HOPING AS TIME GOES YOU CAN FORGET

I'm ready for Lauren to get here!

She loves me for me and wont drop me like a bad habit because I dont hang out with certain people

I would love to have more friends, closer friends. But I think thats impossible,well not impossible. But itll take a while.

It will take a while to feel like some people dont use me for shit. Im certain im the only one that would come to someones rescue at 6:30 in the morning, just to save someones ass. I dont do it for praise, I do it for hopes of something in return. w/e

Everyone has gone their seperate ways because some people smoke,others dont, some people hang out with others, some dont.

The world has torn us apart,we are the typical high school group with different clothes and music.

COOL

ive hung out with the same 3 people all summer. : /

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(no subject) [Jun. 22nd, 2006|11:26 am]
[mood | depressed]

i hate myself

i need you more than life

ill do anything to keep you in my life

please dont leave me, i cant live without you,

this is my wake up call
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I've given up on everything worth giving up on [Jun. 19th, 2006|12:29 am]
[mood | awake]
[music |comeback kid]

Just a few things
1) i need more money. theres always new bullshit i have to spend it on

2) i need lauren to come home. im sick of being empty

3) i wish everyone would quit worshiping people like they are god, because they are fucking PEOPLE

4) im glad harloe is doing the damn thing,i wish i had enough money and time to be there through it all

5) i wish about 5 of you would just fucking hang yourselves or leave the planet earth

6)im fucking tired of living an unfilled life, jacksonville isnt enough for me, the same people who dont care, arent enough for me.

6.5) i need to think about alot of shit while in orlando this week. alot....

7)CALIFORNIA R.I.P.


i've lost alot of patience due to stress, but not any of my love for you. forever&always.
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is the bottom that far? [Jun. 10th, 2006|06:12 pm]
[mood | cynical]
[music |comeback kid]

Back again
Right where I started
And I can't find anything
To take me out of your
Shallow waters
That I've been drowning in so long
Who's here to take me out

Time to face another day
But will it be just like the last one
It's up to me to make the difference this time
I'll face another day
And it won't be just like the last

You talk loud without words
I've had enough manipulation

I found my way out
I'm not a slave to your game


Taking back what's mine


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lauren come home.... [Jun. 5th, 2006|01:06 pm]
[mood | calm]
[music |A&A]

I cant live I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me


damn. a week gone and alot has changed(evenmore)
where is everyone?
I'm lost.....

summers here and just like i predicted, alot has changed.
: /
fuck it, lets live like theres no tomorrow

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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2006|08:47 am]
Schools out guys. yay.

andddd i put weight gain in a deserving whores smoothie.

DONT FUCK WITH PEOPLE WHO MAKE YOUR SHIT ;]
hhahahah
<3
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3 days and a wake up [May. 23rd, 2006|11:26 pm]
[music |BLINK 182]

EVERYONE should probaly take their heads out of their asses and see the shit that is all over them.

Lala leaves tomorrow : [ she is one of the only people who doesnt judge me for having a life, who remains constant and doesnt hate me because i have a boyfriend. I'll miss her d00dz

Im ready to pull my hair out, between finals and work and friends/boyfriend. It is really fucking stressful, sick my dick if you oppose.

So summer starts tomorrow, thats basically amazing. I just want it to be amazing, drama free(unless i can beat some ass) and filled with lots of smoothies : ] (for everyone duh)

i have failed half of my exams, but whatever, suck my black pearl enhanced penis, im out of school, bam bitches.

I am also about to say the gayest thing ever, im stoked to be a SENIOR next year.

I miss Connor. also very weird to say on lj, but whatever. 

I love my boyfriend, he's my best friend. I leave with him for the bahamas for a week on saturday, wish  me goodbye and hang out with  me before hand pwease : ]

Everyone else doesnt really like me, but whatever, im tan, so bam, suck it.
XPAC WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
<3



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i like the way my icon looks : D [May. 11th, 2006|10:14 pm]
[mood | gloomy]
[music |paul oakenfold.]


I dont know if anyone else can see whats happening

everything and everyone is changing.

theres no one to blame. i guess nature is taking its course.
it sucks because everytime i see you i think about how it used to be.
i feel like ive lost my partners in crime, wether permantley or if its just a drift off because 
everyone is so busy. im just hurt, and if no one can see my effort. then fuck it.


alsoooo.
sometimes people change for the better<3
and sometimes people find their other halves and sometimes
people get better jobs, and sometimes after all the shit, people still love eachother 
unconditionally.<33333333
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So basically happy fucking birthday pdillon. [May. 8th, 2006|10:09 pm]
[mood | cold]
[music |saosin]

  MMMMMMM CRACK!!!

haha. i still love you, although I am rarely able to see you because my life sucks and everyone hates me because of it and i got a new job at smoothie king making 7 dollars an hour. kbye.
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burning bridges... [May. 3rd, 2006|11:00 pm]
[mood | full]
[music |the faint.]

I will lay to rest my ghosts
And cover my footsteps
I will stand up straight and walk away
Leaving them far behind

Won't look back
Chains that bound me
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2006|10:08 pm]
[mood | curious]
[music |Brand New]

                      Its not about having what you want
             
                         
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2006|02:03 am]
[mood | artistic]
[music |Nightmare Of You]

You live in your own decay

Smile as you loose your last chance, your next day

Its brought you down, youd beg it to take you out

Anyone could help you, but no one is around

Funny thing irony;

Death before birth,the ending before the beginning of the story

Where it stops no one knows, one more tear until it blows
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he knows it best<3 [Apr. 27th, 2006|10:40 pm]
[Current Location |<33]
[mood | aggravated]
[music |NIN]

patsavesTHEday04: yea. its a hard situation your in. you have to juggle work boyfriend friends school and god knows what else. and if you do one of them wrong then your fucked.
AFC incredible: exactly
AFC incredible: if i pay more attention to one then i get fucked over by the others





Please understand this is exactly whats going on.
Im trying my best to be here for everyone.
I cant do it without yall.
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the downward spiral.... [Apr. 26th, 2006|10:47 pm]
[Current Location |...]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |NIN]


Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
We're never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me


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the blood sisters [Apr. 24th, 2006|10:50 pm]
[mood | confused]
[music |,,,,]

EVERYTHING to me

nothing to you?





..i miss you.




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(no subject) [Apr. 23rd, 2006|11:33 pm]
[mood | depressed]
[music |jaded.]

Hey j-j-jaded, you got your mama's style
But you're yesterday's child to me
So jaded
You think that's where it's at
But is that where it's supposed to be

. )
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